Joke of the day

Q:What does my emotions and an anion have in common?

A:They are both negatively charged

ahaha, no? The chemistry of things requires that in order to be neutral, I need to give up my "atom" to someone who is more positive. Not that I want to bring them down, but merely giving them some negativity that they also need. Opposites attract as people say.

I fear I am not getting any better,just stagnant,putrid and becoming quite insensitive.
Looking back on earlier posts 2 yrs prior, nothing much has changed if at all.Should I pray to St.Jude? Find a wiccan to remove the Hex placed on me? Light black candles and incense? Maybe, some good ol' voodoo or modern day SSRI's or TCA's should do the trick.Seeing that self-determination and cognitive therapeutic methods of support have been unsuccessful. Fighting the invincible dragon without much of an armor,shield or sword. Ask anyone veteran, combat makes you exhausted, especially if you are on the losing team.You lose comrades and family along the way, not sure if its before or after motivation.Well everyone loves a good fight. People spend lunch money to see Bobby Joe get beaten up behind the park, or Mike Tyson give his famous knockout punch. So come on down folks,don't let this opportunity to see the train wreck collide.

Step right up, hurry, hurry before the show begins, my friends
Stand in line, get your tickets, I hope you will attend
It'll only cost you fifty cents to see
What life has done to those like you and me

See the man with the broken heart
You'll see that he is sad, he hurts so bad
(So bad, so bad)
See the girl who has lost the only love she ever had
There's got to be no sadder show to see
No doubt about it, satisfaction's guaranteed

So let the sideshow begin
Hurry, hurry, step right on in
Can't afford to pass it by
Guaranteed to make you cry

Let the sideshow begin (Hurry, hurry)
Hurry, hurry, step right on in
Can't afford to pass it by
Guaranteed to make you cry

See the man who's been cryin' for a million years
So many tears (So many tears)
See the girl who's collected broken hearts for souvenirs
It's more exciting than a one man band
The saddest little show in all the land

So let the sideshow begin (Hurry, hurry)
Hurry, hurry, step right on in
Can't afford to pass it by
Guaranteed to make you cry

-Sideshow,Blue Magic

so tired, tired of waiting...

... tired of waiting for you.

Conversation with a new friend goes:-
me: and we all know, its the emotions n what's in ur head that fucks u over
tm: not so much...
me: we want to care n be cared for
tm: simply cuz u care
tm: doesn't mean u have to be attached
tm: or expect something from the other person
me: this i am learning
me: no one wants to care with out nothing in return
me: unless u r my child
tm: noone wants it... more oftne than not, that's what we're given
me: its funny, b/c i tried explaing this partially to someone
me: that i care for them but they still read it as me wanting to be attached
tm: my status the other day was " TM is glad he's learned to care and not dwell, love but not committ, and cry without shedding tears."
me: i'm with u for the first two
tm interestingly enough... written after an argument w. bff
me: awwww
tm: lol... the last jus meant i was hurt
me: i need to figure out how to allow myself to be hurt n accept it
me: not needing to always make sense of it or dwell or get angry
tm: :|
me: i just have some hurts that i can't get over
tm: wtf is wrong wit you
me: ANGER
me: GRRRRRRR
me: >:o die mf's
tm: no i ask, cuz it's the same thing that's wrong with me
tm: typically... when i argue with someone i care about...