ADD anyone?

Whoever in the hell said that Aderall will help you focus for finals lied their asses off. LIARS. (insert flaming mad face)The cocaine for preppies eh? Well its such a bag of peanuts.
Seriously, I was better off before. I can't seem to focus at all.The plus side is, I have been a little more chatty.Chatty can be fun.Chatty can be good. Chatty es no bueno when you have to study your books. Finals are less than 48 hrs away and have I studied yet?...I have been searching the web on everything from better soft drugs to soft porn to perverted teachers.Mind you, there are quite a few (I will hyperlink once I graduate). It also occured to me, that there are a lot of pervs out there, that aren't so far from reach. Its the guy sitting behind me in lab, or that girl who puts peanut butter on her cinammon bagel. Its not always the beady eyed, whiskey drinking, southerner (could be describing my uncle "jOe")

I must say,the days have been better. I am more moseying up to the realization of my nerd self, and that I will never be "cool" or "normal".Whatever in the hell that means. I fell far away from the apple tree, and apparently not many others have too. And that's getting OK to deal with. I keep waiting for the spaceship to jet me out of here,where are the abducting aliens when I need them. Getting probed doesn't seem half bad right now. My meds are now out, and I fear I shall return to the doldrums...I had a half decent night last night however, w/ someone I thought to be intially a freakazoid. I still believe him to be. He did however share my obsession for guiness and English, or proper grammar- (mind you I suck at it).But somehow, the interlocking puzzle pieces still don't fit.

Maybe I was put into the wrong puzzle box.

I want to get out there in life. I mean, really out there. If I weren't so academically driven(thanks mom) I would rather be tight rope walking or fire eating with the carnies somewhere. Well at least I am not internet dating anymore.